It's over..

i know.
no matter the amount of tears i shed is gonna bring u back to my side.
i never regretted loving you.
i never stopped loving you once.
i know.
things are this way now.
no matter how much i cry,
like what i'm doing now while i'm typing this,
is gonna bring u back.
Sometimes i wished,
time could just turn back,
and i could have treasured you as much as you did.
I know i disappointed you.
I know..
But.
What could i do?
I truly love you,
even until now,
that u left me already,
ignoring my sms.
Life sucks without you in it.
I don't know why things turned out to be this way.
But if you'll be happier this way,
then i guess it doesn't hurt as much to end this relationship.
Even though both of us might be hurt,
but if u chose this path,
i respect your decision,
no matter how unwilling i am at heart.
Because
I love you,
i want the best for you.
If being with me was a torment,
then i guess letting you go,
is my way of compensating.
Then i guess,
all the tears i shed for you,
all the hurt i feel in my heart,
that i don't show it out,
is my punishment.
Then i guess,
losing you today,
is what i caused myself to land up in.
Destroyed by my own hands.
Please don't blame yourself.
You were never wrong,
the one at wrong,
is me.
And i know,
you're never returning to my side,
ever again,
no matter how much i really want you back,
because,
i'm not good enough.
And through this,
i'm going to learn,
to change into someone,
better than yesterday,
better than today,
into the future me.
Hoping you will see it.
And realising all this is for you.
No matter how much my mouth is hard,
and say all the words i never meant at heart,
and say all the phrases that made me seem strong,
deep in my heart,
is something else you never knew,
and you will never know,
that is,
i am satisfied to be able to love you,
and gaining your love for this past 2 months,
i never regretted,
i never changed,
i never thought of anything else,
but to love you,
but it's all too late to say now,
you're already gone,
never coming back.
So for the last time,
that i can,
i'm gonna say,
i love you.
But,
the love for you in my heart,
will never change.
Ever since you suggested to break,
i had never blamed you,
deep in my heart,
but maybe on the surface,
it seemed like i'm blaming you,
but i'm just being hard at mouth.
I know all these is cause of my own actions.
I know..