heartBROKEN~

cannot stop thinking about him taamaadee!!

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is something seriously wrong with me??

falling for people who play with me and don't even care about me le .

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should have appreciated when they were around .

i'm so sorry but i love you --> take from Big Bang - Lies .

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what's with me .___. ?

cannot think cannot think now studies most important !!

NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

thCONFUSE

argh i'm so confused confused confused ~ !
i don't even know what do i want inside me really !
people already get over me so long ago happily living with his BENDAN,
yet i'm here thinking about his things, how he treated me, how bad he is !
AHHHH $*@&*$&@*(&$@*( !

but i know the most important to do now is to guai guai go school =)
the worst part is think about that baichi, also think about someone else !
ZZZ WHAT AM I THINKING ?!
how can this be happening zzz ._.

AM I THAT DUMB TO REALISE THINGS THAT SLOWLY ?!
that i'm always UNLOVED .
that i'm always PLAYED .
that i'm always an IDIOT .
that i'm always a FAILURE OF LOVE .

thHAPPINESS

hihi all i'm just here to tell all of you i'm very very happy !

tada ~ decided to let go of everything and start anew !

because i know what my heart really wants now !

sorry to those who i have no choice but to let down ,

but i'm very sure this is my final decision .

so , ja mata !

Sinyi<3

thLIFE

ohaiyo gozaimasu !

i'm F-I-N-A-L-L-Y back to school !
well , afterall , i enjoy being back in school with my classmates as i realised that i was wrong when i was afraid they might treat me as aliens .
to say the truth , it is indeed very hard to catch up with my studies again , demo daijiobu desu ka , ganbatte benkyoshimasu !

ano , with regards to my LOVE LIFE or whatever , i don't have much comments about it luh . Just feeling so fucked up .
You know how it feels when you get stuck in the middle between two having feelings for both ?
The feeling sucks T.T
The feeling sucks even more when you come to realise that one of them have been lying to you all this while ?
Telling you " oh how much i love you and i want to patch with you " and when you heard that you float to the heavens and fall to earth in a split second , when you realised that not long after , just because you are not confident of patching , the person has another NEW LOVE ?! Honto baka ne . It's like you like that person and yet you realised that person is only playing with you . But no matter what i appreciated the fact that we were happy before .

Regarding my family even worse ._.
it's like i go back school they expect me to change a person like that .
What the hell la .

Nevermind , feeling more fucked as after blogging about that bastard .
I will never forget my eternal hatred for him .
Yokatta ne ~

So , ganbatte kudasai desu !
Ja mata .

Loves,
Sinyi.