thLIES

ONE SENTENCE.
THREE WORDS.

I'M UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED.

well well ..

after leaving your house ,
you tell me you wished i didn't had to go ,
cause you miss me alot .

on the surface it seems that you really do love me ,
but ,
what's in your heart and brain ,
no one ever knows ,
except yourself .

i'm not trying to doubt you ,
even i myself don't want to ,
but ,
it just seems to hard to trust you and your love again .

when will you drive into my heart again ?

thHEARTBROKEN~

now i know your answer ,
is not to give you time to think what to choose ,
is to give you time to break with me ,
so you can patch with her .

but she's not willing to patch with you ,
so you say you want me back .

how am i to trust you ever again ,
after 1 year ago ,
you hurt me so fucking deep ,
and one year later ,
the same fucking things happened .

teach me how to trust you again ,
convince me you'll really not let me go ,
teach me how to love ,
will you ?

my heart has shattered into a million pieces ,
even if those million pieces are collected together ,
glueing them together ,
there are still visible glue lines ,
that represents the scars in my heart .

how should i tell you to let you understand ?

or perhaps you don't have to understand at all .

- Sinyi

thCONFUSION.

feeling so confused .
seriously .
i don't know whether kaiwen's heart is with me,
or with weiting (fyi: it's his ex girlfriend)
weiting always sms and calls him to tell him things like
"i miss you again" or "what am i gonna do with life without you?"

i am bothered, i know it.
but i can't do anything about it since kaiwen said it's alright because they're still friends.
the worse part is, weiting knows that kaiwen has a girlfriend already.
and yesterday kaiwen told me,
his heart is so weird,
because occasionally he will think about her.
what am i to do?
am i the third party between them?
i don't know, seriously, i don't know and i can't get the answer no matter how much i figure it out.

the affinity between me and kaiwen started one year ago,
one year later we're back together and is history going to repeat itself again?
i don't wish to get fucking hurt by kaiwen again, and the same way as one year ago.
i hope that whatever he said that he doesn't wanne lose me ever again is true.
i am sick of getting hurt, i am sick of you changing heart.
please, prove me wrong for once, will you?
i hate to know that one year ago, i had to leave you because you had a change of heart.
i don't wish that one year later, i have to leave you again for the same reason.
please convince me that you really do love me,
before my heart dies.

- Sinyi

EXAM RESULTS!!

WOOHOO EXAM RESULTS ARE OUT!!
As followssssss :

Communication Skills - A
Computer Architecture - B+
Web Design - D+
Problem Solving - C+
Computing Maths 1 - D+
Computing Maths 2 - B+

ALTHOUGH THE RESULTS AINT FANTASTIC BUT WELL!
I PASSED ALL!
TEEHEE xD

thLOVE!

alright alright.
to be honest, yes i am attached once again.
After being single since the last day of 2008 till now,
i am attached and guess who ._.
my ex boyfriend, named kaiwen de LOL funny.
03.03.09 would be our first year anniversary if we didn't broke off last year.
But on 06.03.09, we "patched" back.
can't exactly say it's a patch because it's been a year since we've been together.
Afterall we were together for only a month.
So yeah , hopefully things work out this time and lasts!

Cheers to Yix3Wen <3

thPROMISE

I promise.
I will kick the habit of late night lifes drinking at pub.
I will not drink heavily, unless there's special occasion.
This is my promise to you.
You know who you are :]

- Sinyi <3