thCONFUSION.

feeling so confused .
seriously .
i don't know whether kaiwen's heart is with me,
or with weiting (fyi: it's his ex girlfriend)
weiting always sms and calls him to tell him things like
"i miss you again" or "what am i gonna do with life without you?"

i am bothered, i know it.
but i can't do anything about it since kaiwen said it's alright because they're still friends.
the worse part is, weiting knows that kaiwen has a girlfriend already.
and yesterday kaiwen told me,
his heart is so weird,
because occasionally he will think about her.
what am i to do?
am i the third party between them?
i don't know, seriously, i don't know and i can't get the answer no matter how much i figure it out.

the affinity between me and kaiwen started one year ago,
one year later we're back together and is history going to repeat itself again?
i don't wish to get fucking hurt by kaiwen again, and the same way as one year ago.
i hope that whatever he said that he doesn't wanne lose me ever again is true.
i am sick of getting hurt, i am sick of you changing heart.
please, prove me wrong for once, will you?
i hate to know that one year ago, i had to leave you because you had a change of heart.
i don't wish that one year later, i have to leave you again for the same reason.
please convince me that you really do love me,
before my heart dies.

- Sinyi