thMEANING~

letters make words.
words make sentences.
sentences make meanings.

therefore,

8 letters make 3 words.
3 words make 1 sentence.
1 sentence make 1 meaning.
and that is
I LOVE YOU !

Only for my dear JJ =)

thMISSES

To Whom It May Concern,
You're Missed And I Love You!
Thanks.

Regards,
BaoBao<3tarttart
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LiangBaobei,
Mummie miss you alot you know ma, was browsing through my computer's pictures, saw the picture your daddie took with you...
Don't even think i'll have the chance to hug you to sleep again, don't even know when i'll get to see you again...
Like i said you'll have a new mummie, and my words came true.
LiangBaobei, mummie is really sorry, cannot give you a nice and wonderful family.
I think not only you get a new mummie, think you're going to have a new daddie too, sorry LiangBaobei, i know the floor is hard and cold, i know daddie threw you on the floor, at least you get to see daddie everyday, not like when you are with mummie, get thrown inside the cupboard.
Sorry LiangBaobei.
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♥BaoBao♥

~BX~BAOBAO~ ♥ PainOfGM
Neo Sin Yi ♥ Ho Jun Jie
DARLINGbao ♥ BABYtart♥NeverEndingLoveSince04.10.09♥ Kay la going to sleep now le good nights <3 !

thLOVE~

CURRENT STATUS
Now at KRTC lan shop , holidays ending soon , sobs .
When holidays over , gotta stop life like that , tonning everyday , and slacking .
Mei's so bored she's disturbing people on IRC .
Di don't know doing what , inside Audition studio looking at moves .
@.@
Then me ? Blogging lor .
That's why you are looking at these text ma .
Hahas .

MY DARLING<3
My darling so naughty , go geylang play LAN , i thought she go bio charbo and find charbo .
And he still tell me Cheap ma , i thought he say geylang de charbo cheap ._.
He is saying geylang LAN cheap , wu hui him le hehe .
He now go peepee , hopefully he don't pee in his pants :X
and i only have one sentence for you darling .
ilyDARLING<3

but other than my darling, ilyMEI & ilyDI<3
i believe we won't seperate again like then , seperated for one year .
Promise? :D

Hao ba , nothing much to update le .
Signing off ,
Sinyi<3

thHAPPINESS

actually , the birthday boy mentioned is my ex boyfriend ._.
yes i admit i used to have a crush on him before this .
but NOT ANYMORE .
instead of being sad i feel happier instead .
cause life liking a guy and having to shut up about it sucks .
:D

i'm ready to let go one year ago when i broke up with him .
so am i now .
:]

Random post

just feeling kinda , random to blog .

well , yesterday was 090909. what a wonderful date for everyone but just any other normal day. but a miracle happened today, someone who never ever calls me called up, but sadly is to look for someone else. his birthday was 1 day before, me joey and yuan planned so much for him. we called him up he say at north 4, later then talk, end up later later later until never call back anymore. we 3 also like idiots, wait wait wait until no news. then early in the morning next day we went up his house to leave his presents beside his bed while he's sleeping. lol. i gave my mum's phone back to her already and used my own phone back. at the end of the day around 12 plus am when i see my mum's phone i realised he sms-ed me and asked why did i give him my fav thing. uh, to say the truth i do like that thing alot, but the main purpose of giving it to him is to let him remember all our memories together because we had some memories together with that soft toy. hope he likes the present though if not i'll accuse him of softtoy abuse! the most i felt most yi han about is to not be able to give him that cake i bought for him, just because he didn't called back we didn't have a chance to meet him up to celebrate for him. end up the cake went all soggy we ate it all. to think i still imagined that we lighted up the candle on the cake and he make his wish just like a little happy birthday boy. lol.

blogging early in the morning, i must be crazy.
k la i'm going to play facebook already.
byes.

thBOREDOM

now at NetForce lan shop and it's very very boring . still have to dong until 10 am .
been playing lan with joey mei and yu an di since like yesterday 12 am ? and calculating we've actually been playing non stop for like 10 hours ? and that sums up to like 20 dollar per person , and three of us means it's 60 dollar oh my goodness ! ._. pok kai liaos .

later at 10 am should be pei-ing joey mei to meet some guy by the name of xavier . well , not really looking forward to it after such a long night . cheebaiis laaas , after such a long night feeling so god damn tired . tired , but not sleepy . LOLS . whatever am i talking anyway . think i'm too seh to think already .

kkays going back audition already will come back to update my baobei blog when i have time keke baiis .

heartBROKEN~

cannot stop thinking about him taamaadee!!

.___.

is something seriously wrong with me??

falling for people who play with me and don't even care about me le .

.___.

should have appreciated when they were around .

i'm so sorry but i love you --> take from Big Bang - Lies .

.___.

what's with me .___. ?

cannot think cannot think now studies most important !!

NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO !!

thCONFUSE

argh i'm so confused confused confused ~ !
i don't even know what do i want inside me really !
people already get over me so long ago happily living with his BENDAN,
yet i'm here thinking about his things, how he treated me, how bad he is !
AHHHH $*@&*$&@*(&$@*( !

but i know the most important to do now is to guai guai go school =)
the worst part is think about that baichi, also think about someone else !
ZZZ WHAT AM I THINKING ?!
how can this be happening zzz ._.

AM I THAT DUMB TO REALISE THINGS THAT SLOWLY ?!
that i'm always UNLOVED .
that i'm always PLAYED .
that i'm always an IDIOT .
that i'm always a FAILURE OF LOVE .

thHAPPINESS

hihi all i'm just here to tell all of you i'm very very happy !

tada ~ decided to let go of everything and start anew !

because i know what my heart really wants now !

sorry to those who i have no choice but to let down ,

but i'm very sure this is my final decision .

so , ja mata !

Sinyi<3

thLIFE

ohaiyo gozaimasu !

i'm F-I-N-A-L-L-Y back to school !
well , afterall , i enjoy being back in school with my classmates as i realised that i was wrong when i was afraid they might treat me as aliens .
to say the truth , it is indeed very hard to catch up with my studies again , demo daijiobu desu ka , ganbatte benkyoshimasu !

ano , with regards to my LOVE LIFE or whatever , i don't have much comments about it luh . Just feeling so fucked up .
You know how it feels when you get stuck in the middle between two having feelings for both ?
The feeling sucks T.T
The feeling sucks even more when you come to realise that one of them have been lying to you all this while ?
Telling you " oh how much i love you and i want to patch with you " and when you heard that you float to the heavens and fall to earth in a split second , when you realised that not long after , just because you are not confident of patching , the person has another NEW LOVE ?! Honto baka ne . It's like you like that person and yet you realised that person is only playing with you . But no matter what i appreciated the fact that we were happy before .

Regarding my family even worse ._.
it's like i go back school they expect me to change a person like that .
What the hell la .

Nevermind , feeling more fucked as after blogging about that bastard .
I will never forget my eternal hatred for him .
Yokatta ne ~

So , ganbatte kudasai desu !
Ja mata .

Loves,
Sinyi.

thLIFE

been soooo long since i last blogged .
well , school's started and life changed .
last week was a mess though , i got stomach flu and had to stay home for 2 days .
kinda fall back out from the rest .
gotta really catch up man .
besides everything , i got a part time job !
working at a clinic just at my house downstairs .
usually i work after school hours xD
this week is just the first week that i'm working .
haha if you ask me why i'm working so hard , toggling between school and work ,
the only answer i can give is because i want to upgrade myself and become a better person !
besides , my family is not very rich either , so if i can , why not contribute that part and lighten their load ?
anyway even if i don't work , i'll most probably be slacking out all nights with friends .
might as well use that time to work and i'll earn money anyway , better right ?!
hahas , tomorrow got work after school , so gotta have lotsa rest !
so there goes , i'm going to bed !
good night whoever that's reading (:

thLASTWORDS.

all i can say is ,

up to you .
as long as you're happy,
i'm satisfied .

BYES!

thLIES

ONE SENTENCE.
THREE WORDS.

I'M UTTERLY DISAPPOINTED.

well well ..

after leaving your house ,
you tell me you wished i didn't had to go ,
cause you miss me alot .

on the surface it seems that you really do love me ,
but ,
what's in your heart and brain ,
no one ever knows ,
except yourself .

i'm not trying to doubt you ,
even i myself don't want to ,
but ,
it just seems to hard to trust you and your love again .

when will you drive into my heart again ?

thHEARTBROKEN~

now i know your answer ,
is not to give you time to think what to choose ,
is to give you time to break with me ,
so you can patch with her .

but she's not willing to patch with you ,
so you say you want me back .

how am i to trust you ever again ,
after 1 year ago ,
you hurt me so fucking deep ,
and one year later ,
the same fucking things happened .

teach me how to trust you again ,
convince me you'll really not let me go ,
teach me how to love ,
will you ?

my heart has shattered into a million pieces ,
even if those million pieces are collected together ,
glueing them together ,
there are still visible glue lines ,
that represents the scars in my heart .

how should i tell you to let you understand ?

or perhaps you don't have to understand at all .

- Sinyi

thCONFUSION.

feeling so confused .
seriously .
i don't know whether kaiwen's heart is with me,
or with weiting (fyi: it's his ex girlfriend)
weiting always sms and calls him to tell him things like
"i miss you again" or "what am i gonna do with life without you?"

i am bothered, i know it.
but i can't do anything about it since kaiwen said it's alright because they're still friends.
the worse part is, weiting knows that kaiwen has a girlfriend already.
and yesterday kaiwen told me,
his heart is so weird,
because occasionally he will think about her.
what am i to do?
am i the third party between them?
i don't know, seriously, i don't know and i can't get the answer no matter how much i figure it out.

the affinity between me and kaiwen started one year ago,
one year later we're back together and is history going to repeat itself again?
i don't wish to get fucking hurt by kaiwen again, and the same way as one year ago.
i hope that whatever he said that he doesn't wanne lose me ever again is true.
i am sick of getting hurt, i am sick of you changing heart.
please, prove me wrong for once, will you?
i hate to know that one year ago, i had to leave you because you had a change of heart.
i don't wish that one year later, i have to leave you again for the same reason.
please convince me that you really do love me,
before my heart dies.

- Sinyi

EXAM RESULTS!!

WOOHOO EXAM RESULTS ARE OUT!!
As followssssss :

Communication Skills - A
Computer Architecture - B+
Web Design - D+
Problem Solving - C+
Computing Maths 1 - D+
Computing Maths 2 - B+

ALTHOUGH THE RESULTS AINT FANTASTIC BUT WELL!
I PASSED ALL!
TEEHEE xD

thLOVE!

alright alright.
to be honest, yes i am attached once again.
After being single since the last day of 2008 till now,
i am attached and guess who ._.
my ex boyfriend, named kaiwen de LOL funny.
03.03.09 would be our first year anniversary if we didn't broke off last year.
But on 06.03.09, we "patched" back.
can't exactly say it's a patch because it's been a year since we've been together.
Afterall we were together for only a month.
So yeah , hopefully things work out this time and lasts!

Cheers to Yix3Wen <3

thPROMISE

I promise.
I will kick the habit of late night lifes drinking at pub.
I will not drink heavily, unless there's special occasion.
This is my promise to you.
You know who you are :]

- Sinyi <3